Friday, May 13, 2011

30 Week Challenge: On My Season of Singleness

30-Day-Challenge

I’m borrowing this challenge from the fabulous Katy Widrick, who borrowed it from someone else, who borrowed it from someone else, and so on and so on. I love the idea of it so it shall be my new thing for Fridays.

Day (or week, in my case) one asks about my single life. I’ll admit it can be a touchy subject for me.

I’ve been single for a long time. And for the longest time, school was my biggest excuse for why I wasn’t dating. I’m just too busy to find time for a relationship, I constantly told myself. And while it is certainly true, I think I used this excuse as a crutch for why I didn’t put myself out there more. Why I shied away from attention and immediately deleted online dating profiles within days of setting them up.

I’m constantly changing my view on my singleness. Some days, I find it free and empowering. Other days, I find it lonely and empty. The fact is, I know I will one day have an amazing love story. I know it will be incredible, special, and mine. I just have to be patient, bide my time, make the best me I can be, and it will all fall into place.

But for the first time in my life, I finally feel ready. I feel ready to meet someone. I feel ready to make mistakes and explore the dating scene a little. I feel ready to fall completely in love. I feel ready to give my heart away, even if it’s returned to me in a million pieces. I’m so done with feeling like I don’t measure up and I’m not pretty or smart enough for someone to love. Because, damn it, I am. I am so freaking worthy of someone’s attention.

Who knows where the future leads. Right now, I want to learn to be content in my singleness. At the same time, I want to learn to open up more, take some risks when it comes to the opposite sex, and believe in myself. I know that if God gave me this desire for my own love story, He will be faithful to see it to completion.

The winner of the Jackpot Designs giveaway is Krysten! Krysten, shoot me an e-mail with what color and design type you want for your address labels!

11 comments:

  1.  Yes, yes you are SO worth it.  Keep telling yourself that.  :)

    I have to admit, I'm the same way as you. I've never really had the time to date, since I hold down a job and go to school.  One of these days I'll work up the courage to put myself out there.

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  2. Ditto all of that! Being busy is such a great excuse to hide behind and one I know I use way TOO often. 

    You are totally worthy of someone's attention, great mantra to remember!

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  3. Ahhhh, I LOVE that entire second-to-last paragraph where you are full of confidence and realizing that you are soooo worthy of someone's love and attention.  I was almost yelling "YES!!!" out loud! :)

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  4. I may need to steal this! I may not use it every week, but possibly... :) It looks like it would really help me diversify my content, which I'm always looking to do! :) 

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  5.  You are definitely worth it! It will happen in due time, my friend! I know that :)  I'm waiting for that love, too!

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  6. KJHartenstein5/14/11, 4:31 PM

    Okay FIRST, YAY FOR WINNING! I have been complaining like crazy that we need some address labels so this is perfect for me!

    Second, I need to steal this challenge from you. 

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  7.  Yes! I'm totally with you on this post. So... how about cute apartment guy? Hmmmm? :) 

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  8. You and me both, girl! It's a tough road, but I think it will be worth it in the end. :) 

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  9. HAH! I love it. :) That sentence came from nowhere, but I love it. And it's true. 

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  10. It's a good little meme-type-thing. (I'm not sure how to classify it?) Some really, really good things to talk about!

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  11. Ugh. I don't even want to TALK about him. BLAH! (I'll e-mail you some things that have happened this past week.) 

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