My love,
I'm becoming impatient. I see married friends, friends getting engaged, friends in relationships and I want to know when it will be my turn. When I will meet you. I'm so anxious to meet you, discover who you are, and mesh our lives together. But I know it's not my time yet. I know I am not ready to begin our relationship yet. I know God has set aside a specific time and place for our lives to begin.
I need to keep the focus on God. I have to rediscover my love for Him and find my place in the church again. Our relationship does not stand a chance if we are not both firm on the foundation of Christ. I have seen too many marriages and relationships crumble because of this fact, and I don't want it to happen to us.
I don't see the man I want to be with in any men I meet. I don't find guys who are strong Christians. Every guy I meet falls short of the expectations I have for you. Are my expectations too high? Do I expect too much out of you? Perhaps I do. But I know that Jesus did not call me to live a staid, boring life. He called me to live a life of fulfilled abundance. He wanted me to live a life filled with promise and hope. He wants so much out of my relationship with Him, so I just know in my heart that He wants me to have so much out of a relationship with you.
I know exactly the kind of man I want. I know I am not willing to settle for less than the best for me. I know God is not going to give me what's less than the best for me. I just have to practice patience. I have to keep waiting, keep praying for you. Because I know you're out there, a lily among the thorns. I know you're going to be one of a kind. (To put up with me, you kinda have to be!) And maybe I am expecting too much. But I would rather expect too much and never find it, than to expect too little and end up in a relationship that rips apart my soul.
But I know I'll find you, one day. We'll meet. Maybe we've already met. We'll have our fights and differences. We'll have our laughter and similarities. But it's going to be us against the world, Dear Husband. Because when you capture my heart, which is no easy feat, it's yours forever. There's no giving it back.
I'm impatient, but I'm waiting. I'm waiting on forever. I may be writing these letters for the next 10 years, but I'll patiently write these until I find you.
I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait for our love story to begin. It's going to be one for the record books.
I love you so, so much,
Your Future Wife
