Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Lately, I've begun to question if I can really pull off this half-marathon. While my training is going pretty good and I am surprising myself so much with how far I can run, I feel like I am going to die after just running 2 miles. I do it, but the going gets really hard. I'm not aiming to place or set any great records, but I do want to run most of the race. I know I have 3 more months, but it's only going to get tougher from here.
Another issue I have is the price of the race. I haven't registered yet and the price now until race day is $100. That is a lot of money for me considering I have credit cards to pay, school tuition due in October, books to buy for school, a parking pass to purchase... I really don't know where I'm going to come up with another hundred bucks. Add to the fact that I really need to buy new running shoes as the ones I have now are literally falling apart and sometimes causing me shin splints, I don't know what to do.
This decision is made even harder by the fact that Caitlin, my go-to girl for running advice (even if she doesn't know it!), says she wouldn't pay more than $60 for a half-marathon. Am I paying too much for this one? It's not even benefiting any type of great cause!
My training schedule is going pretty good, all things considering. I've been able to complete my runs, but they are hard. A part of me wants to work towards running a 5K in September, a 10K in November or December, and a half-marathon in March or April. It seems like it might be a more normal racing plan for someone who hasn't done many races and doesn't consider herself a runner. (And currently talks about herself in third person.)
In a way, quitting this half-marathon training seems like another failure to check off on my list of Things I've Started But Never Finished. I make these grand plans of things I'm going to do (get to bed at a decent hour, make straight A's, lose weight, write a novel), but never seem them come to fruition. I know it doesn't mean I'm quitting running and I'll still be training to run a 5K, but it still leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Then again, I don't know if this was just an insane plan to give myself - me, someone who has never been able to complete even a 5K. Maybe it would be easier to ease myself into running.
Tell me: what do you think? Should I just put the half-marathon on hold until Spring? Or find a way to pay the race fee and get over myself?