September

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I am so ready to wave good-bye to August and prepare my mind for a new month. I feel like September is more like a new beginning for me than January. In January, we are so filled with hope for a year unlike any other. We have big plans, big ideas, big dreams. By September, we simmer down a little and while maybe all of our big plans, big ideas, and big dreams seem to fall to the wayside as real life sets in, we still realize we have 4 months left of the year to change our life.

August wasn't a good month. It was rife with hurting, accidents, hospital visits, and setbacks. I've had to grow up in just a few short weeks and realize that my mom isn't going to be around forever. My grandma isn't going to be around forever. That I need to get down on my knees every night and pray for those cousins of mine, who are on a collision course of destruction. That it's times like these that I need to cling that much closer to the cross to give me strength, guidance, and hope.

I'm embracing September. I think we're going to get along just fine. A few small goals to get me through these next 27 days:

Heal. This has been a month of injuries, from my mom to me. I want to focus on healing this September. My mom is still dealing with a broken elbow, a sprained thumb, and thoughts of regret and anxiety. We have more orthopedic appointments and x-rays to see how her elbow is healing and hopefully getting the OK to do some exercise. I want to leave August in the past where it belongs and focus on new beginnings in the following months. We both need some happiness after both of our hospital visits.

Overhaul my diet. Over this past month, I haven't been counting points or calories. I've been trying to eat smarter, although I haven't been totally successful with this. I feel happier, though, and a little more free. I've been thinking of a different way to view my eating habits, less about what keeps me at 1200 calories a day or 21 points a day and more on what fuels me throughout the whole day. I'm starting small and I have a whole blog post formulating in my mind about this new way of thinking. I want to first think about breakfast and eating smarter during breakfast, which will help me eat less throughout the entire day and feel energized.

Shift back into exercise. Once my mom got hurt, I had to take on a lot of responsibilities which meant exercise shifted to the back burner. And then school started and exercise was just thrown totally off the stove completely. I do want to wait until my thumb heals to really get too serious but I really want to amp up my running again. I'm planning on running a 10K in November and I want to be totally ready for that.

Writing. I only have two stories to write this month for my classes, which doesn't seem too bad and I know exactly what I'm going to write about for one of them. The second article scares me since it involves my Sports Journalism class, which I think is going to test me the most.

Bake bread from scratch. For my Feature Writing class, I'm writing an article about baking bread. And this means completely from scratch, something I've never done. It's going to be quite an interesting experience and I haven't even begun to get started! Have any of you baked bread from scratch? Leave me your tips/recipes in the comments, please! (Or you can e-mail me at stephanywrites[at]gmail[dot]com.)